fearless.

07Jul10

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it “Chops”
because that was the name of his dog
And that’s what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That was the year Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
Valentine signed with a row of X’s
and he had to ask his father what the X’s meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night
And was always there to do it

Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it “Autumn”
because that was the name of the season
And that’s what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint
And the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed
when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
And the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed a lot
And his father never tucked him in bed at night
And his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it.

Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
And he called it “Innocence: A Question”
because that was the question about his girl
And that’s what it was all about
And his professor gave him an A
and a strange steady look
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
That was the year that Father Tracy died
And he forgot how the end
of the Apostle’s Creed went
And he caught his sister
making out on the back porch
And his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
And the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
And at three a.m. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly

That’s why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
And he called it “Absolutely Nothing”
Because that’s what it was really all about
And he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn’t think
he could reach the kitchen.

- The Perks Of Being A Wallflower

love this book. almost done reading it.
past few days have been like some crap.
i’d rather have no life and stay at home and rot.


this is life.

05Jul10

playlist

LOVE – CN BLUE
Sweet Holiday – CN BLUE
Eclipse – CN BLUE
Bad Girl – BEAST
Easy (Sincere Ver.) – BEAST
Love Class – Mighty Mouth ft. Han Ye Seul
Nagging – IU & Seulong

SYF Opening Ceremony.
so we went to the Indoor Stadium for practices starting tuesday, preview on friday, and actual on saturday. was pretty slack since we started going to the Indoor Stadium for practices as compared with those in school. most of the time was spent waiting for our turn or eating. so anyway. some of 2B’s girls were part of the unlucky people who got their costume on thursday in school. ungh, just fol, so the whole gang of 2B girls went to change. went into the cubicle with yiling, and after we zipped up, we looked at each other and started laughing. it was so tight, hot and in green, it really looked like a frog. a frog with a really long tail. >.> there was this golden string to round your arm, totally look like bazhang. after plucking up enough courage, we stepped out of the toilet and walked into the hall.

okay then the guys were being all nice and acted like nothing was different. didn’t laugh at us or anything. yucong even said we looked nice, in a non sarcastic way (: then we got on the bus and daniel was telling us not to sit at the back cos the engine was there. ok good, so we shifted in front. and when there weren’t enough seats, the guys squeezed together at the back seat so the girls could sit comfortably. they were doing nice & gentlemanly stuff throughout the whole thing, making sure everyone had food before they ate, giving out utensils, carrying stuff… etc. see that’s why 2B guys are the best :D

so suay luh. they delivered the costumes to the indoor stadium and everyone had to change into theirs, except a few. and raphael was going on and on about it being all about karma – the nice people like sasha didn’t get their costumes. the girls decided that we’d shut up even if the guys looked horrible, but i guess we didn’t need to worry about it at all cos the guys came out looking pretty nice actually. not gay at all and bonus was that their abs were showing and loads of girls couldn’t stop staring :D hah. 2B mah! we started playing the waist game and everything while waiting. preview performance wasn’t bad at all and everyone was pretty high, so we didn’t mind waiting for the bus for an hour or so (:

everything was the same on the actual day. just that cjl was having loads of fun spamming our hair with glitter and everyone looked amazing with gelled hair and glitter all over their face & hair~ then we had those light sticks to be attached to the headgear that we could rip out and throw up in the air after the finale. it was so fun doing that! the whole group of us just kept picking the sticks up and throwing them again. we left early cos we got the third bus. and yay, it had led lights in the front, looked like some mafia bus :D the uncle agreed to off all the lights, and we drew the curtains at the back and started having our own concert :D had some food back in school and everyone was desperately trying to get all the glitter out of their hair :} my class tee was totally green at the back thanks to that.

<3 2Believe 2010~


you know people say that people look different on-screen and in person.
i didn’t use to believe it, but after today…
yeah it’s totally true.

so anyway. i was pretty late and feeling so shitty today on the train. going to school for a 4 and a half hour session of aesthetics with cat high. then suddenly i saw this girl running in front of me, then i saw Joyce and both of them were wearing some BEAST t-shirt. so we started smsing and she told me the hi-5 session tix were still on sale! (: so yeah. can’t go showcase then go hi-5 session luh. my sis got the tix while i was at aesthetics, then she came over and sent me to IMM.

changed into the shirt. but ungh. i swear. after such a long aesthetics session i prolly stink really badly, and i wasn’t looking very good as well ): nothing i can do so i just cut through the crowds and met up with Joyce & Serena (they started queuing at 11 plus!). so bad. yeah and we were behind the third barricade at first, then Hazel came after an hour or so and i don’t know how she walked, and she ended up behind the second barricade instead. so we took advantage and rushed through the crowds to where she was and got a pretty nice view (: gates opened at 5, so we stood there chatting until 7, when the event was supposed to start. fellow fangirls were really nice. we borrowed markers and everything and chatted alot. Jaclyn, Jacelyn, Jayclyn… yeah, she showed us pics she took at the U-KISS showcase. “Dongho was DAAAAMNNN hot!” LOL. the emcee came out and started the lucky draw, made us wait for an incredibly long time. i was standbying at the barricade to video their entrance. almost fell asleep there.

then at like 8pm they entered!~ and that was when all the fangirling started. i was standing so close to them when they came in omg! saw Doojoon, then i don’t know anymore cos i was kinda stone after seeing him in real life. like OMG. HONESTLY WHEN YOU SEE HIM ON TV AND ALL IT DEPENDS ON THE CAMERA ANGLE AND EVERYTHING BUT IN REAL LIFE IT’S SO DIFFERENT. I CAN STARE AT DOOJOON ALL I WANT.

and that’s what i did. i managed to get 5 or 6 of them in the entry video <3 then ran back to position and they went on stage and performed Shock immediately. damn impressed right now seriously. i was really focusing on my 3 biases, Doojoon, Hyunseung & Dongwoon, so i can’t really give anything in-depth for Junhyung, Yoseob & Kikwang. but the way that Dongwoon dances is so good! so different from what i see on mubank! was trying to see AJ’s dancing but he was being blocked most of the time anyway. i managed to get a video from the last half of Shock :D kinda shaky cos i was tiptoe-ing and screaming fanchants at the same time. Junhyung was just poker face again. but gosh he looks really different off camera. in a good way. he looks extremely good. the camera doesn’t do him justice luh. his face is really good-looking and he’s damn cool. Doojoon was so hyper! <3 kept waving at the cameras and doing those poses that just melt fangirls. AJ was all cool. looked quite the same. just that now he feels more 3D. Yoseob was so cute, his usual self. he looked nicer off camera too (: Dongwoon was hyper also. kept on talking to Doojoon, so cute :D Seunggie was being mysterious again. yeah, but he still waved and everything ^^ we screamed the fancheers really loudly. and the audience went crazy. but when Seunggie started his part not many people were screaming. so i screamed extra loud for him. guess he isn’t as well liked in Singapore ): i kept taking pics. it was with my aunt’s camera though, didn’t really know the effects and all. so most of the pics came out blur. there was once when both Doojoon & Dongwoon was looking over, but it was a blur pic ):

one of the more decent pics. everything will be up on fb after awhile <3

they had a short interview. only Dongwoon, Doojoon & Yoseob spoke in korean. i was totally dazed anyway, couldn’t catch much, except that Doojoon mentioned chili crab. o.o then they went back-stage and the staff set up a table and everything. the emcee was good. she totally knew what to say to get us hyped. when they were backstage she said, “it’s kinda hot over here so maybe they’re taking some time to take off their jackets.” *screams* “how can they be so good-looking right!” *screams* “who likes Doojoon?” *screams* *some rules to take note of, just hi-5 them. don’t… you know, attempt to hug them or kiss them or whatever you are intending to do.” LOL. someone behind me was like “i am totally going to rape Dongwoon omg.” the table was just gna be another obstruction so i can’t hug Doojoon ): anw, AJ did strip. he just wore a vest instead of a jacket over his really lowcut round-neck shirt that no one was really complaining about (: because we were so front, we were one of those to go up first :D i think it’s in this sequence. Hyunseung, Yoseob, AJ, Junhyung, DOOJOON, Dongwoon. was really dying.

so first up was Seunggie. wasn’t focusing much on the hands. felt like normal ones… just that it was JANG HYUN SEUNG’S HANDS :D was totally looking at his face. looks so flawless. they couldn’t have put on that much make-up! his face looked so photoshopped and perfect omg. even close up!  he looked at me in the eye and smiled. damn cute omg! so i was already dying a little bit inside. next was Yoseob. trying to gain composure to no avail. he gave me a businessman smile like you’re sealing a deal. then he laxed abit and laughed. his hand was nice too :D didn’t notice much about him except that his hair looked so touchable <3 AJ! Joyce & Serena totally melted. but anyway he was looking at my other hand and biting his lip giving that look again. ohmygodddddd. too bad that my hand said “Yoon Leedah” and not AJ<3 he kinda bent down to greet me, which was so nice (: oh and i noticed. his hand was quite rough compared to the others. haha ^^ Junhyung, i don’t know okay omg. it passed so quickly! i just hi-5ed him and got a chance to look at him close up, really close up. and i conclude that he is seriously seriously really good-looking. like good-looking good-looking, not cute good-looking, hot good-looking, just good-looking good-looking. okay.

THIS IS THE POINT WHEN I REALLY DIED. doojoondoojoondoojoon!~ went on to doojoon. the emcee said there wld be staff beside the members to collect the gifts you wanted to give them. so i was looking for a staff member and i couldn’t. so after i hi-5ed him, i was kinda dazed and all. then he saw his gift and he said “thank you!” and smiled. and he did all that while looking at me in the eyes. YESYESYESIKNOW! YOON DOOJOON JUST SPOKE TO ME! HAHAHA. OMG TOTALLY CANNOT GET OVER IT :D :D :D

then moved on to Dongwoon. i was melting like some… MY GOD. hi-5ed, he was so hyper and everything. i was stoning, and supposed to collect a poster from the staff member next to him.then the staff member was like tapping me with the poster cos i was just lagging for a sec. i took it, then Dongwoon was looking at us, and he laughed :D i made Dongwoon laugh!~ okay he is damn cute in person. he smiles alot and laughs alot. really nice (: then Joyce & I got of stage and we started screaming. She for AJ & me for Doojoon <3

THIS IS THE ONE! Doojoon & Dongwoon were looking over (:

we went out to look at the limited edition t-shirts. cost $30, damn suck money luh. but because i was so dazed and couldn’t think straight, i got one. Uncle was so happy luh. and i was like “huh. fangirls no money one luh. sell so ex.” then he started telling me about how teens this days always spent money buy this idol stuff. kinda contradicting. went back in and we were standing just outside the barricade that they were gna leave through. they kept waving and everything. and Doojoon took of his jacket :D haha. hordes of fangirls tried to look for them at the carpark and stalk them, but the 4 of us just lagged there. then we went to eat and couldn’t stop going on and on about it. Serena was like “i’m so cold now. but once i think of them my hand feels all warm again~” haha. fangirl spirit.

after today i feel that BEAST is a group with 6 cute & nice guys, who look really really good in person. and yeah i think i’m totally gna be fangirling over Doojoon these few days (: it took me so long to calm down and write this post. anw, the stuff i wrote on my arms aren’t coming off. C tmr. better sleep now.

gdnite and dream of BEAST!


alright so. it’s now 2.12 am and i have c in 6, 7 hours.
Spain also lost to Switz.
i don’t have tix to the wonder girls showcase this friday.
neither do i have tix for tmr’s meet & greet.
neither do i have tix for BEAST’s showcase.

not exactly a time to be so happy, but i guess some things just have more impact than c lessons & world cup. things like Orange Caramel’s new songs & mv! CN BLUE HAVING A CONCERT THIS JULY! AND TAEYANG & TOP & SE7EN & BIGBANG & KHS!

i haven’t been this happy in a while! omg.

Magic Girl is so jpop. sounds like a shojo anime theme song. something along the lines of sailor moon yeah. all 3 of them look so pretty! and they all have more screen time and more chances to show their vocal skills that were in fact existent all along (: the fact that Minhyuk appears in the mv is a huge huge bonus… <3 can’t wait to see them live tmr on mubank! Raina’s solo song is really good. it’s on replay now!

then comes the many surprises that Mr YG has slapped us with. i’m really not complaining. Taeyang’s solo album to be released on July 1st, it’s called Solar. SOLAR. doesn’t the name alone suggest something amazing, unbeatable?! :D then dear Tabi’s MV teaser. he totally killed it! was totally fangirling when i saw it~ then SE7EN! one of the original kings of kpop. Se7olution sounds great too and also, he won’t disappoint us. i know he won’t, because he’s SE7EN (: anddd lastly, khs’ new song! she sounds alright, it was her first song after all. she’s so talented <3

the next few months are gonna be amazing! starts off on the first of July with Taeyang’s album release. then tons of promotions. SE7EN’s next on the 21st! Narsha’s gonna be promoting her solo as well, and CN BLUE is going to hold their first korean concert on the 31st! then it’ll be August and Ga In will be promoting. Most importantly, what i’ve been waiting for for a year & a half. BIG BANG’S COMEBACK! and who knows, YG may decide to release 2NE1′s comeback anytime (;

this is getting me super hyper. omg~
YG FAM FTW :D


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Day 4: Your ultimate k-pop girl bias. Park Bom.

playlist.

Love – CN BLUE
Tell Me Goodbye – Big Bang
Sweet Holiday – CN BLUE
Love Song – Rain
Don’t Leave – Davichi

Davichi’s album is so amazingggg!

haha. each time i watch a performance by CN BLUE, i’m infatuated with them for the next 24 hours. all four of them. not just Yonghwa. <3 tsk. okay bleach tmr. yay ^^v


Day 3: Your ultimate k-pop guy bias. Kwon Ji Yong & Lee Seung Hyun.

aka G-Ri <3 the only pairing i ship other than G-Bom. both are so cute. individually or together (: Nyongtory ftw!

happy birthday Jiyeon & my sis.


Day 2: Your favorite k-pop girl group. Wonder Girls.

once a wonder girl, always a wonder girl.
once a wonderful, always a wonderful.

Sunye, Sunmi, Sohee, Yeeun, Hyuna, Yoobin, Hyelim.

i got my 2 Different Tears today! as well as Davichi’s Innocence mini album (: both have super pretty photos. and the quality is amazing. guess what, 2DT only cost 7400 KRW, which is about 9 plus 10 sing dollars? :D anyway. WG world tour started yesterday. i haven’t watched all the fancams yet except for Sunye’s because her solo was Gaga’s Paparazzi. Leedah Min, you did a great job! <3 it’s a really hard song, and it’s in English! ^^

Performance Line-up

1. I Wanna
2. Goodbye
3. Don’t Cha (Pussycat Dolls)
4. So Hot
5. Nobody Rainstone Remix
6. This Time
7. Lim solo – Lip Gloss (Lil’ Mama)
8. Yoobin solo – Boom Boom Pow (Black Eyed Peas)
9. Yeeun solo – Mercy (Duffy)
10. Sohee solo – Single Ladies (Beyonce)
11. Sunye solo – Paparazzi (Lady Gaga)
12. I’m a Survivor (Destiny’s Child)
13. Saying I Love You
14. Stickwitu (Pussycat Dolls)
15. 2 Different Tears
16. One Night Only (Dreamgirls OST)
17. Nobody
18. Tell Me

guess there would be a lot more songs if it was a Korean concert :D but it’s The Wonder Girls after all, so… everything is excused <3 i wish the Hottests didn’t keep chanting 2PM during the concert. it was so rude. and when you piss the Wonderfuls off, it really means something.

We are really not that pretty, and not that smart. We are not that good at singing and dancing, I think. We are just really grateful that people are enjoying our music, dance, and everything. Yeah, so thankful for that.

Min Sunye

Wonder Girls, the best best best kpop girl group ever! wonderbang ftw! <3

and of course, a with Hyelim in it. wouldn’t forget about her (:

happy birthday Kim Hyuna, Jung Yonghwa, Kim Hyunjoong & Sohn Dongwoon!


Day 1: Your favorite k-pop guy group. Big Bang.

i decided to do the challenge here as well so there’ll be updates here everyday. haha. anyway. i watched Mubank yesterday after doing my math assignment that almost killed me. so. Sistar was up first. i heard their intro… and i skipped through the rest. Davichi was great as usual. Haeri’s voice sounds different from usual though. 4minute was okay. the cameraman didn’t like Jihyun ): Jiyoon & Sohyun were just freaking amazing! :D then AS goodbye stage. a total must watch. but it seemed like they were desperate for time, so many parts of Bang were cut ): CN BLUE was so cute. i enjoyed their perf so much :D Suju was usual. Leeteuk needs to wear something inside that jacket. ^^; missing kyu. Heechul was so cute omg. (: then the highlight of the show. SS501! finally. they were so good. both the ballad and the dance song was great :} yay i hope they win next week.

dying for the next episode of Bleach. hitsugaya! hah. the epic fights are gonna resume. ^^

ps. anyone going to the WG showcase? :O




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